Imagine yourself playing in a game, but your head is facing down because you have been really losing, and then your coach walks in the room with a trophy informing you that it is yours. That it has been secured for you and therefore you can continue playing and enjoying the game, competing as those who have already won.  You would be able to fully trust the process because you are sure of the outcome- that you are a winner.

My child, I have saved you but you may be in doubt consistently. You may be trying to work out your salvation to show me that you deserve it- you are trying to get the trophy. Any time you fall, you have felt afraid that you have lost me and you are no longer saved. You may be walking in fear and so cautious not to lose my salvation, such that it has turned to hold you captive.  You need to trust that I am working in you, even though I have already won the fight. Allow yourself to be free, by letting go of that big responsibility, which however hard you work, you can never earn for yourself. You may be walking righteously outwardly, and others see you are a role model but have you ever thought if your stand with me is out of fear or out of love? You may walk right because you do not want to lose your position in me, and you want to benefit more from me, or also out of love, where you do not want to grieve my spirit, and you are keen on serving me with the way you live.